Dear Me,
This earthquake happened for a reason.
Earthquakes occur when there is enormous unseen pressure underground, and the structure must change.
Eruptions of volcanos occur because they have to and with no intention of keeping the environment around it the same as before. The small shakes, the small blows, are an invitation. Thinking, maybe we will notice, listen, and possibly find another way to release that tension.
We were not on our path before the car crash, and we both know that. We knew it then, and you know it now, while still healing. I know it, too, years forward.
When such a big earthquake occurs, like our car crash, together with the NDE.
When deep healing in so many layers is invited, the healing state does not wish to look as it looked just before. The land inverts for a reason. And so must we.
I know this is challenging to acknowledge. Here I am. Smart. Writing this to you over ten years later. What we know feels certain. And we all tend to walk back to it, trying to be as we were before. But that is not the invitation. Not the invitation given by a car crash/earthquake. Nor with any other crisis in life, small or large.
The invitation is to grow and change. Try something new. Allow ourselves to be different. And not different in what we wear, or our hairstyle. It is to allow ourselves to remove all of the outer definitions we carry. Until the only way we can walk, the only clothing we wear is that of our natural being.
Beautiful. Authentic. Walking true to our path.
Where you are now, your family and your friends, their natural response would be to wish for you to return to who you were. They love you in their way.
Seek the company of those walking towards their essence as well. As they will understand that you can never be as you were before and that if you will be, another earthquake will have to take place.
Trust the knowing of your heart. Allow yourself to explore. Look forward and trust that you know the way.
I love you and look forward to meeting again in our future.
Me
While writing these Notes (I wish) I Wrote to Myself, I found myself bringing the teachings offered by my parenting journey and Near Death Experience into writing. The result is The Promise We Made: Three Universal Soul Promises We Made to Our Children 🙂
