My dear, I know it is hard.
You’ll be surprised who returned to be our friend so many years later.
For now, you need to let those who need to go, go. Let things be. It’s not like you have any energy to spare.
Focus on your healing. Precision should be your priority. True friends stay. They find their way through the gaps in frequency between us. And others… There are so many amazing people in this world. It is OK to let some go.
You know, we recently came back from a year abroad. Yes, another thing you can’t even imagine, and I… I’m still surprised we could do it. Being away for a significant year of growth, we changed a lot. We all returned different.
What is it that changed? Our frequency and our ability to be precise to the moment.
Kind of like flowers, knowing when it’s their time in the yearly cycle, but then also being attuned to the delicate messages of the earth and air.
Any change of frequency brings about a change in the people you want around you. And likewise, in the people who want to be around you. I know it’s easy to say so many years ahead, but so much healing has taken place. The car crash and NDE changed our frequency. For moments for better, for others, less so. It’s a choice. And there is no right or wrong. Only what’s precise at one moment. And gratitude. Gratitude for those who were able to see me, beyond the horrible appearance, the constant complaints, the pain and frustration, and being lost.
Don’t feel bad about focusing on your healing. In your life journey, friends will come, and friends will go. You are fortunate to be walking with several friends that you have known for eternity.
Try looking at what you are going through from their eyes. Would you be comfortable seeing them if they looked like you do these days? How would you feel if you saw them contracting from pain, as you do unexpectedly? How much patience would you have to hear their complaints? Or then, sit silently since anything you say tires them? Would you be able to handle the frustrating lack of ability to help them? And, well, as much as they love you, their life goes on… their job, and little kids, and life…
Some carry the ability to be there for you. Others carry other skills and gifts they bring into your shared life. Some can see the pain and not feel it themselves. Many of your friends, intuitive, empathic souls themselves, feel your pain. And to keep themselves safe, they need to back away. Respect that and trust your shared dance.
And you are so fortunate to have so many of them around.
Let the ones that can’t be around, for now, go… your life has changed. You are choosing change. Some are a few steps ahead of you in their choice. Others you might be surprised to find, even seven or ten years later, that here and now, they are walking with you. I love such surprises. When those, others dear to us, whom when I was still like you are now, wounded and hurt, I thought took a completely different path in their life’s journey, suddenly show up at a crossroad. Chatting, happy to see each other, and then eventually walking side by side.
We each have our path. Sometimes our paths merge. Sometimes they diverge. Both are beautiful as long as it is in line with the way of our true self.
Yes, I know. I’ve become a little spiritual, haven’t I? You can laugh. It’s ok. Or maybe you shouldn’t. Sorry, I forgot how painful it is for you. It’s going to heal, you know—your stomach. Your muscles will always be very weak, and your belly will be huge. But as you already know, that’s not what matters. What does matter is that you will be able to laugh. Strong. From your heart. With tears. Of both gratitude and joy.
Let those who can walk with you, walk with you.
Let those who can’t, go with love.
You’ll be surprised to learn who has shown up, back in our life.
I love you,
Me
While writing these Notes (I wish) I Wrote to Myself, I found myself bringing the teachings offered by my parenting journey and Near Death Experience into writing. The result is The Promise We Made: Three Universal Soul Promises We Made to Our Children 🙂
